looking back on old photographs is like sifting through troves of old memories.

i look at each picture and reminisce on the times when i was looking so chubby-
cheeked, so silly, unglam and sometimes horrific (haha) ..and yet so blissful, in a way.
like this one here, i was at my fattest, but i was really happy (see, sparkly eyes!)

sometimes these photos make me laugh out loud, at the sheer silliness of it all!
sometimes they make me miss the people i don't get to see very often :(
sometimes they make me feel sad, because things are never the same,
and how i miss the good old days... i wish i could turn back the clock and relive
those moments again, and treasure them for eternity.
but there is a reason why there is no rewind button in life.
if we could all backtrack to our happiest and gloriest moments,
then our most precious memories would cease to exist, and we would start to
take people for granted.

looking at pictures is such an activity that triggers so many memories,
all at once! 'oh remember so and so' 'we were at this place' 'and we did that'
stillframes haphazardly arranging themselves into an animated mosaic.
looking back is such a joy, yet the aftertaste is bittersweet;
sort of like biting into a bar of chocolat noir...

i love recalling all the happy events in my past, especially those spent with
the ones i love and cherish the most
yet there is an ache in my heart where i wished that things were still the same,
if not better; wishing that i hadn't done that, or that i should have
done this instead, and etcetera.

sometimes we don't want to remember
and sometimes all we want to do is forget
especially when the present is not as good as the past

there are so many instances in which i feel a surge of powerful emotions
just by looking at these photographs, remnants of the past

i miss you a lot! the europe girls, jialin, addie, sally
the doubleseaters gang, kwanyi, moi, jialin, dawn & sab
and my beloved basketball and softball girls
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i thank God for putting all these people in my life
the old friends, as well as the new found ones
especially nick, who has given me so much happy times,
and walked me through my valleys.

blessed is a child of the Lord! Y