these days i find i really don't know what is going on anymore.
the worst thing is, i don't even want to know what is going on.
i wonder why i had to come back. i wish i stayed.
i just want to be on the next flight back to melbourne.
but i have responsibilities and obligations that i cannot shirk.
the easy and selfish way out seems so inviting!
but yet i know i can't, and it would be so wrong to take it.

in times like this i feel like i can't ever be certain of anything else but God.
i don't know who else to turn to but You.
and my faith will not waver, because You will not forsake me.
i will never understand why things like that happen, but i do know
that You are in control. i'm keeping my chin up, and tomorrow will be a better day.