i bought a top sometime ago, and this is what the cute tag had to say:

"but i cannot marry the mole!"
the beautiful mouse cried in despair.
"what on earth shall i do?" in her grieved stupor,
she stumbled on a corncake and fell in a heap
on the ground, and continued falling,
deeper and deeper, until she rolled no more.
a little thud echoed in the hollow.
through the darkness, she heard a gentle voive,
as comforting as the cool earth
beneath her dainty mice feet,
beckoning,
she heard the single strike of a match light,
lo and behold,
appeared a halo illuminating the sweetest brown face
"do not be afraid, my dear. it is i, mr. mole."
her tiny heart gleamed with surprise,
for it was love at first sight.

i've been reading Captivating by John & Stasi Eldredge, albeit at a veryveryvery slow pace.
it's a really good book that really speaks to the core of my heart.
it makes me feel quite sad sometimes that i can identify with the tough stuff in the book yet comforted in a sense, because i can relate to it and also because i know there are many women out there who are in the same situation.
the more i read the more exposed i feel.
suddenly i begin to realise how needy i am, how much i desire to be loved and delighted in, and how much i want to be beautiful and lovely.
it's embarrassing for me to say this on a public blog but it's really true and i don't want to pretend anymore. i love being appreciated and cared for and i love being in a romance and i love being the girl of someone's dreams. when i don't get what i want, i feel disappointed. the feeling is immense, and sometimes consuming. i hate that! ergh!
i just want to be a nice and kind person who is liked by all and most importantly someone who radiates God's presence and blessings. but it just seems so hard, especially when you have been wounded and it's hypocritical to pretend.
i know it's unrealistic to hope that a book would change my life but it has definitely impacted me in some way and i very much want to take a step forward though. i realise it's not what i want that matters so much but rather what God wants for me.

i know one day i will see the big picture.
and i won't wait until that day to be happy, because if i don't start now i never will be!
so i will try my best to smile and be thankful for everything, even if it hurts.
because God is always in my heart and that is reason enough to be joyful :)