it's amazing how God gives me much to be thankful for, even in circumstances where i feel like i'm losing track of things, getting smothered by work, losing touch with people...
i feel so thankful.. i really do. God is always faithful, even if i have been unfaithful. He is so awesome :)

well, on to another thing that has been on my mind for the past few days.
it's sort of like a weird circumstance between a group of friends where a good intentioned gesture goes totally awry.
what is one to do when one person means well and the other person is unappreciative? it's just so incomprehensible sometimes, the things people do. at this point in time there's no use in debating who's right or wrong, but one thing i've learnt through this, is that people are wired differently and we just have to learn to be tolerant.

the joy of being in love and the pain of being out of love are both very real and intense.
the former places you on cloud nine, on a pedestal, is so saccharinely sweet that it gives you a little ache in your heart when you miss that special someone.
the latter is excruciatingly painful, debilitating, is so devastating that it feels like a spear is plunged into your heart each time you think of that someone who was once yours but no longer is.
the biggest risk we can take in our lifetime is with our hearts.
we know that we may get our hearts broken and that we may never recover-
but we still choose to take that gamble.
the stakes are high, but even so, we seal that gamble when we place our hearts into someone else's hands,
and say "please be careful with it."

to all the people who bother to visit my blog, sorry for the lack of posts, but i really have nothing much to write about.
in contrast to the days where i would blog daily about everything and anything, now i choose to blog only when i have a need or urge to do so. (read: i'm getting increasingly lazy.. that's what i am. haha :/)

some random updates:
1. i overslept missed a lecture for the first time today (in 4 weeks)
2. i'm into baking nowadays.. it's so fun and i love it! :)
3. i have 2 boring projects this sem and i'm going to boring moe for rural.. ick.
4. ok i don't know what else to write but my current mood is: slightly apprehensive. - can't say why on this blog, but i pray and hope that everything'll be fine.. apart from that i would say i'm 8.0 on the happy scale :)

this entry is dedicated to my dear friend,
MISS SHERLYNN AI PING WONG! :)
happy 21st my awesome housemate- the girl who is so in love with the colour pink, whose screams can scare away any burglar, the queen of table tennis and KTV, the girl whom i can form shopaholics anonymous with, the girl with the melodious voice and the caring friend who offers comfort to anyone in distress and who can cook a mean dish of cocacola ribs.. thanks for being the wonderful person that you are, and i thank God for putting you here in my life to bless me. Hope this special day will be one that you'll remember in years to come! :D

have a grrreat time babe, heart you muchos! <3

blogging after a hiatus seems so strangely awkward now.
these days,
i feel so incredibly drained, so incredibly tired and washed out.
the one thing that continually bogs my mind now is work, work, work.
even the activities that i used to enjoy before now seem like chores;
i find myself getting so sick and tired of all these things
and i just feel like extricating myself away from all the clutter.
i just feel like distancing myself from this, this and that.
even though i know this attitude is undesirable,
i dislike getting criticised for it.
this is how i really feel: i'm tired, so freaking tired.
i choose not to bother myself with more things than i can handle.
i would rather miss out on it rather than drag myself there and force myself to enjoy it when deep inside i wish i was elsewhere.
i'm just doing what makes me happy. i have my priorities in life.
selfish perhaps, but this is my right. and i have done nothing wrong.
i'm gonna take a raincheck.. i need it.
i'm only human.

so don't freaking judge me.

woke up for the 8am lecture but the lecturer pulled a no-show.
i feel so cheated.
because after the lecture i had no class till 1pm.
which means i could have woken up much later. (i slept at 2am)
oh the injustice.
ok i should stop grumbling. it's pointless really... but i still do it anyhow.
looking on the brighter side, now i can go home and watch amelie :)
oh yeah. i still don't have internet at home.
freaking bananas.

just wanted to rave about my brother.
yay for his results and double yay for getting best recruit! :)
am really proud of him.

"God has been really good to you this time."
"God has been good to me all the time."

=D

i'm in the midst of settling into my new home and i have no internet access yet,
so sorry about the lack of updates.
nothing much has been going on except for a couple of random stuff:-
i've just finished doing up my white-and-pink/maroon themed room :)
school's started this week (and shu is in my tute. yay!)
and strangely i am getting used to not having internet at home.. haha.
okay i've nothing much to say anyway, so maybe i'll update again when there are things worth writing about.