there are just some things which matter to me, but not to you. there are just some things that you value more than others, but which i accord lesser importance to.
i don't know why i should be this upset.
i know i'm demanding, selfish and impractical to impose such a thought on you. but it also disappoints me that you would be reluctant to go the extra extra mile for me. i just didn't expect an outright no, and it stung. because i knew i would have done the same for you, even if you didn't want me to.
i think my notions of love are probably far too idyllic.
perhaps i'm just being unreasonable. or silly.
i need to learn to be more independent, and shake off the shadows of my previously over-sheltered life. i know i can't always expect others to look out for or take care of me. i don't want to be The-Kid no more.
i dislike it that i'm always so afraid, that i let myself get sad so easily. i dislike it when we argue, i hate disagreeing with you but somehow i can't seem to hold my tongue. but most of all i dislike it that i'm always so naive and silly, for being so idealistic and then hurting myself when i come crashing back into reality. i know, i should listen to my head and not my heart. i would save myself a whole truckload of unnecessary pain if i did.. but i didn't.
i'm sorry for going on and on. i just need an outlet, and i'm sure these emotions will pass.
on to happier things. i caught project runway last night for the first time, and i quite liked it :). iron chef america is good stuff. i just love morimoto- such skill and creativity! (think asparagus ice-cream and chocolate coated asparagus, outrageous innit?) mmm i wish i had cable. then i'd be glued to the food network 24/7. i like watching tv even though i haven't really watched much tv to save my life for the times i've been overseas and eversince i came back. tv is just so brainless and all you do is sit there and stare at the goggle box. minimal thinking required, excellent distraction from the real world. i love tv world.
because on tv everything just seems so perfect..
somehow i can almost hear my head say to my heart, "i told you so!"
i don't know why i should be this upset.
i know i'm demanding, selfish and impractical to impose such a thought on you. but it also disappoints me that you would be reluctant to go the extra extra mile for me. i just didn't expect an outright no, and it stung. because i knew i would have done the same for you, even if you didn't want me to.
i think my notions of love are probably far too idyllic.
perhaps i'm just being unreasonable. or silly.
i need to learn to be more independent, and shake off the shadows of my previously over-sheltered life. i know i can't always expect others to look out for or take care of me. i don't want to be The-Kid no more.
i dislike it that i'm always so afraid, that i let myself get sad so easily. i dislike it when we argue, i hate disagreeing with you but somehow i can't seem to hold my tongue. but most of all i dislike it that i'm always so naive and silly, for being so idealistic and then hurting myself when i come crashing back into reality. i know, i should listen to my head and not my heart. i would save myself a whole truckload of unnecessary pain if i did.. but i didn't.
i'm sorry for going on and on. i just need an outlet, and i'm sure these emotions will pass.
on to happier things. i caught project runway last night for the first time, and i quite liked it :). iron chef america is good stuff. i just love morimoto- such skill and creativity! (think asparagus ice-cream and chocolate coated asparagus, outrageous innit?) mmm i wish i had cable. then i'd be glued to the food network 24/7. i like watching tv even though i haven't really watched much tv to save my life for the times i've been overseas and eversince i came back. tv is just so brainless and all you do is sit there and stare at the goggle box. minimal thinking required, excellent distraction from the real world. i love tv world.
because on tv everything just seems so perfect..
somehow i can almost hear my head say to my heart, "i told you so!"
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