ugh.

sometimes i really feel like a total a**. i'm far from being the perfect daughter and my dad is way too nice to me.
was talking to daddy on the phone last night, and we talked and talked and talked for a good one hour. during which, he updated me about the dengue outbreak at home, and some funny-itis viral disease which is spreading in india. my dad cuts out all the newspaper clippings about novel diseases and of the medical scene in singapore. he laminates them and puts them all in one clear folder, for me to have when i go back for summer vacation. i told my dad about my horrible midsem results, half expecting to be berated, but the harsh words never came. instead he said, "don't worry i'm sure you're still above average. and i know you're still somewhere high up despite what you think."
seriously.
sometimes i think my dad loves me too much.
i feel so happy and sad at the same time. the happy part being self-explanatory; the sad part being how i feel as though i've let him down in one way or another. and not able to see or touch him where i'm at. it's okay. only 2 months to go!

anyway, i'm going to the beach later! we're gonna stay in nick's uncle's beach house and i think it will be really fun. can't hardly wait! :)