this post is dedicated to my darlings kairui & kaijing. thankyou both dearies for the wonderful krispykremes! iloveiloveilove youboth & those awesome donuts!

donuts galore! yummmyummm.
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i love basketball. even if i kinda suck at it. even if the play gets rowdy. even if the guys don't give me a chance. haha. i just love it; its a form of.. release. the adrenalin rush, the intensity of it all.. just makes me love this game more than ever. best of all i love the camaraderie. nothing more satisfying than watching your team mate finish a beautiful play that you helped assist. hokay, enough ranting already. think i should go bathe. my msn kinda screwed up on me. i can't send messages! ugggh. all in good time i suppose. i have 3 choices now. 1. download & re-install msn 7.0 again. 2. download permeo from dc to bypass the firewall. 3. abstain from msn till exams are over and done with.

mmmhmm. tough choices there.

new

new layout! love the new skin; props to pigshoes:) for the genius behind all these snazzy effects. and those lollies! mmmhmmm. hokay i seriously need to study now before i fail the semexams.

fairy extravaganza.

saturday night. fairythemedparty. haven't done all that girlywhirly stuff in ages: the sequinned tube, flowy skirt, glittery green eyeshadow and not forgetting the essential fairy wings and sparkly wand. but it was fun. ladies night out; guys at redline conference. and thennn. those sneaky guys surprised us with two songs and a cup with our names painted on it. awfully sweet of them! ok will post the photos up when i've got time. or when i feel like it.

resolution.

i caught episode three last night at glen. i thought it was aight, but some of those scenes with padme & anankin were just downright cheesy.

"you are so beautiful."
"no, it is because i am so in love with you."
"oh no, i am so in love with you."

i was cringing in my seat. i think nick was snickering.

anyways. i just came back from my jog. go me! first jog in two weeks. i hereby resolve to stop snacking unhealthily and to exercise more. just give me three months. three months and i'll become a hot mama (i hope). lately i've become quite addicted to those instant coffee thingamajicks. nonono not the super 3-in-1 types. the nescafe&thelike types that come in latte, cappucino, mocha, irish cream etcetcetc. i have to drink like 3 cups of those a day. and i end up sleeping for like 4 hours or so per day. but i figured drinking coffee is better than bingeing on peanutbutterjelly bread, so yeah. coffee is my latest obsession.

dead.

i am so not supposed to be writing this. i have an assignment to complete and a test to study for. so i should not even be typing this. but i have a brain block. dammtdammitdammit. ok i'll keep this short and sweet. had roti prata last night at AUD4.50 apiece. bloody ripoff. but what to do, its roti prata for goodness' sake. i wont make it a habit :) andandand. went to watch FA cup finals at johnsons' place. what a draggy match. only thing that kept me awake was the guys shouting and anti-climaxing. rowwwdy man. but the bottomline is: Arsenal won! woohoo. no henry though. but ljungberg was THE hotness. haha okok. gotta get back to that assignment.

bull

in one of those crappy i-don't-know-what-the-heck-is-going-on moods.
this week has to be like the weirdest i've ever had in ages.
serendipity, making people angry, going through that 'whatiswrongwithme' phase, disrupted sleep cycles, missing school because i woke up late (again). i dont know really. but seriously i'm so whacked. like so so whacked.

sinking to those depths.

omg. what in the world did i just do?

i feel like crying now.

oh.

wellwellwell. what do we know. there is an episode 20 after all.


anyways. ilu* mummy. for all that you've done, for all that you've not done, for how i've pissed you off so much, for how you've nagged me so much, ilu to the heavens and back. i wish i were home with you. i really do. but sometimes i do wish you would tell me more.
happy mummy's day.

girl, interrupted.

it's 312am now and i'm still trying to figure out how i should structure my essay. before that i was doing some random research on kidney stones and hypertension. i'm getting increasingly stressed because kr has already finished hers and i'm still stuck at paragraph 2 of what is supposed to be a 2500-word essay. however i am trying very hard to apply what i learnt in my health-enhancement class the other day: its not the event itself but our perception of the event that causes stress. so now i'll just psyche myself up and tell myself that a 2500-word essay is not such a big deal after all.


owells. anyways, lately i've been feeling like i've been suckered into something but not allowed to venture further into it. sort of like watching desperate housewives from episode one all the way to nineteen and waiting impatiently for twenty. but then you realise that there was never any episode twenty to begin with at all. i can't really put that feeling down in words. at best, i suppose it feels like disappointment laced with a tinge of hurt, and stupidity. well i don't know. i think i'm just very unsure of myself at this point in time.

"even the best fall down sometimes.
even the wrong words seem to rhyme.

out of the doubt that fills my mind
i somehow find
you and i collide."

collide//howie day.

sometimes.

i went to watch the interpretor on tuesday and i loved it. i loved going to the movies after half a year of not stepping into a cinema (yesyes please gawk). i also loved going to Happy Cup (yes we have Happy Cup in Ozzie too) and drinking chocolate milk tea with pearls for the first time in 4 years.


there are times when you get too scared to let your heart lead the way.


anyways. here are some outdated, random songs which i think are nice to listen to over and over again.
:: the blower's daughter//damien rice ::
:: brick//benfolds five ::
:: everytime i close my eyes//babyface ::
:: you know what//craig david ::

happiness is a state of mind.

prash said this while we were walking to school today on a dreary monday morning, "you look happier these days." well and i responded with, "do i really?" and the gang chorused the affirmative.

well i guess i really am quite happy, despite things not turning out the way i wanted them to, the fact that i still haven't quite acheived some of the small goals i've set myself, and some minor hiccups along the way. i thank God for everything that he's given me - even though i honestly don't think i deserve it. i thank God for giving me the most precious things and people that i never dreamed i could possess. i thank Him for giving me so much joy and meaning in my life even though i strayed. You alone are my strength and my shield.

p.s. thankyou guys, for offering to bring me to the doctor's, for giving me medicine, for boiling soup for me. you guys are the truest friends i could ever have.

surreal.

friday night. alcohol,driving,cops. i never want to go through it again. but in a way i must say it was a good wakeup call. sometimes we can't just blame everything on bad luck. we have to take responsibility for our actions. we can't keep on finding excuses to cover up, or go on sinning to numb ourselves. such is life. but i thank god that we were all safe and sound. worse things could have happened, and i just can't imagine if they did. i thank god for the friends who stuck on and helped me out; ilu guys.

can i just add that bourboncoke & chocolatevanillabaileys kick ass. though i'm not too keen on orangevodka. or pot.

here are some piccies from lab session on thursday.
someone's digestive tract.. exposed.

intestine.


i miss my tausarpau! i haven't eaten one in 4 months and when i finally got the chance to, i just had to capture it on film. aussie tausarpau tastes like crap compared to khongguan's, and cost 3 times the price of it. but heck, its still a tausarpau.